As you know, my blog is where I share about my path, and even since the very first post in 2009, I’ve been writing about my connections to familiar spirits, my guides at times… the ways I learn from the animals, insects, plants and trees… and all of the experiences in nature that bring light to my understanding of what I do, and the transformations I go through. I wanted to write a post to explain a few things that have been going on for me lately. I have been getting more and more busy because I will be re-Opening my Etsy shop soon, and there are just so many changes happening with it. It’s been hard to keep you all updated without giving away my big surprises… I wanted to write a bit about my NEW Logo! I LOVE it… I have had a few people tell me it’s “adorable”, which I can see, but it’s so much more than a cute little picture.
I started my business back in 2004, it was called VisionWise… I was making deerskin medicine bags (only trading them at the time), silver wire rings with crystals and minerals, lots of necklaces and other jewelry, and doing tarot card readings… I have been looking for my old business cards and the flier I had, it’s so interesting to see what it looked like then and how they’ve evolved over time. I use to use an image of an ancient owl statue. (I’ll try to find it!) Anyway, I did tutoring, and pet sitting, and also helped people clear clutter from their homes to organize and create a more peaceful space. I was doing all I could to stay afloat but without any money to invest into supplies, etc. I quickly ran out of enough to even pay my bills, so I moved home. Long story short, that is when I met my husband and went back to school and earned my Master of Education in Cross-Cultural Teaching and my Multiple Subject Teaching Credential. I also had my daughter and we moved through a few homes until finally arriving at this one that we’ve been in for 5 years now. When I started my business I had plans of doing something with it, and things started to fall into place, but financially I wasn’t ready, and I had a lot to learn about running a business. (There’s more to this story that I will be sharing when I re-Open my shop btw…)
I’ve always had lavender with me through college and in every home I’ve lived in. It’s a plant that I keep close because it speaks to me, and provides abundant medicine that I thoroughly enjoy. I recently explained a bit about my connection to lavender here, if you’re interested in reading that. Anyway, I chose lavender and roses to be in my logo because both have deep meaning for me. Roses remind me of my grandmother. She would always have rose soap in her home and she cared for rose plants near her bird bath in her back yard. Watching birds has always been my favorite pastime with my elders… My dad being an avid bird expert/watcher/hunter has taught me so much about them since I was an infant… Observing nature has been my norm for choice activities whenever I could choose what to do with my time. I love roses also for their intense therapeutic healing properties. They literally have so much potency within their essence, and they are slow growing, so are highly coveted by many… Roses are a book to be written… So much meaning… Pure LOVE and Healing… That’s the basics.
I added acorns to the logo because of my deep connection to Oak trees. I’ve written so many times about Oak trees on this blog, you could just search “oak” and I’m sure there will be pages of posts. They are a tree that grows locally where I hike in the nearby mountains and have provided me with a lifelong sense of protection, and have offered me medicine in countless ways, strengthening my spirit, and helping me calm my fears as a child and throughout my entire life to this day. I am very balanced with my masculine and feminine characteristics and Oak has helped me accept this part of me. Oaks are a very masculine tree, and I’ve learned to relate to how this energy can be used in intentional ways that are helpful to me on my path. Acorns are so symbolic. They represent creativity and fertility… concepts I work with constantly, being such a creative person. I never run out of ideas and seem to attract people to me for this reason… It has been a challenge to accept this part of me as well, because I am often taken advantage of for this abundant aspect of my personality… I give freely of information and ideas, and people feel inspired to recreate them for themselves… Sometimes it feels draining though if I’m not aligned with my higher self. Oak reminds me that I am here to help others on their path. That my gifts are not meant to be hidden or held tightly. I learn by teaching, and I learn about myself in all of the lessons that present themselves to me, even the ones that are painful and feel disturbing. Like when so-called friends turn out to be parasitic. (Like the beautiful mistle toe that grows only on Oaks). The Oak tree is a portal to this understanding… They help us get through hard times, and provide us with nourishment and shelter during those moments when we tire. I turn to Oak for the energy of keeping on my path and doing all that I can to help others while I also remain open and humble to others helping me. I may have to experience the despair of not knowing people’s deeper twisted intentions for connecting to me, but it will not stop be from fully blossoming in this lifetime. I have an endless amount of energy to give and when people try to tap into that to serve themselves, they eventually realize that they need to find it within themselves to be sustainable.
Strong within, and a softness, I am sensitive and empathic, and these things make my path a challenge, especially the clairaudience, clairvoyance, clairsentience, etc. I have learned to hone these gifts and am guided without ever questioning it anymore. Deer and hummingbird have helped me with this… So many others too, but I chose deer and hummingbird for my logo because they each represent aspects of me that I want to share with others. People have always said I look like a deer. I have big dark eyes and a skinny long neck… My hair and skin are like the deer, with many freckles when I was younger too, like deer’s spots. As the spots have faded I have learned what deer teaches me… I became a vegetarian and stepped into yoga back in 2003, right after I ended a very painful relationship. That time in my life was crucial to my path, because it is then when I dove into my spirituality and would stay up late meditating with crystals and summoning the moon. I’d go on my lunch breaks to learn about the healing properties of minerals from an elder woman in my community, who I gathered dozens of specimens from, to study… I’d started to eat mushrooms back then and it is that medicine that connected me more to deer and the woodlands like I had been when I was a child… I journeyed deep in the woods and found myself again, shape-shifted into deer and had intense visions of my human guide appear, telling me things that I’ll never forget about my path… These moments, are locked into me as tokens of sacred energy that I’ve held in humble awareness as I’ve moved forward… From a tiny baby until now I’ve always walked the medicine path… turning to nature for my guidance, knowing I was “different” or at least felt different among most of the many people in my life outside of my family… I learned to walk lightly like deer, keep my ears open and my eyes wide and alert. There is danger out there… this I have known… Deer are not fighters… they do not have sharp teeth or claws… They may know how to run, but will choose stillness when faced with dangerous encounters with others. They’d much rather stare it down and then walk away peacefully then run in fear or charge with anger. Deer is my heart. I am open and vulnerable but fully aware at all times of what is approaching. And like deer, I have a sense of what I need… I will leave what I don’t need behind quietly. Deer have been watched by Native Americans and other peoples who have learned what herbs and roots, and fungus were edible, which were medicinal, etc. I bring this energy to my path in hopes that I can share about my connection to nature in a way that provides good medicine for the people...
I would never have been able to do this without hummingbird. A tiny force of light and all colors, not just for the colors the male’s have in their feathers, but because they go from flower to flower engaging all colors in the spectrum of light they weave through the sky. I actually connect to female hummingbirds mostly, which is why I made sure to tone down the colors of the hummingbird in my logo… It’s a common mistake for people to assume the flashy colorful feathers are of the pretty female, but naively that type of thinking is just the opposite of truth. The males of most bird species are the most colorful. Just like peacocks, another bird women love to use as a way to feel feminine and beautiful, not truly realizing that it is the male’s energy, a source of a power actually, is what they seek… A seductive energy that draws people to them… Well, I don’t seek power, and I despise lustful ego displays. I have so much inner power that I have to just let it flow constantly out in peaceful ways… and hummingbird’s heart beats so fast and they fly in every direction collecting the medicine of flowers that they just resonate with my mind and help me find the sweetness in life in those dark times, when my mind is so active… She came to me and still returns daily for these reminders… Of quiet strength, of not needing to be showy, of being amazing in such a small way, that inner bliss and joy of playful love and Being offers. I have written about hummingbird and deer so much, so I won’t repeat too much… They are both sacred to me in this way that I give of my heart and open up to others in my creative efforts to inspire and bring attention to self-healing and protecting the earth. It is all so important to me… Both deer and hummingbird as well as Oak trees and all flowers are gatekeepers to the faerie realm, a realm I relate to, and deeply respect.
The partial wreath of white sage leaves is very much a part of the roots in my name Lauren, from the roots of it’s meaning – “laurel” as in the laurel tree and bay leaves, of the crowns made for poets in ancient times… and because white sage is what I use to burn down and clear negativity… to connect to spirit, to remember my path… It is one of my sacred tools and spirit guides.
Having my shop closed for the past ~6 months has been so vital to my growth. I am so much more connected to my path and feel like I had more to learn about running my business. These things I could not have learned while struggling to keep it running. I needed to pause. So thank you for staying along for this journey. What I’m about to reveal in the next few weeks is so exciting and truly is going to take me swiftly off into a beautiful part of my path ahead. I have sensed it and have worked very hard to manifest it… From the very beginnings back when I had just opened my business until now, I have watched it unfold at a turtle’s pace… It’s interesting to me what my close friend told me the other day. We were discussing Turtle Medicine and Art… I resonate with her words so much… She is so wise…
“Art is my tool for expressing something inside me. No less. No more. I don’t have to be an “artist”. I don’t have to sell myself. I am doing it for the freedom of my own heart. Money and fame, or struggling for it, believing that it matters, would ruin it. That is what turtle is teaching me. To be content in my own house, on my own path, at my own pace.”
I’ll be sending out my long awaited newsletter once everything is in alignment and I’m finally ready to show what it is I’ve been working on. I won’t officially open my shop until June 11, but will be revealing things that will be available when the final steps are completed. Until then, I’ll be busy making and creating and writing behind the scenes. I’ve been really good about posting everyday to my Spiral Elixir Facebook page with updates and inspiration, so be sure to Like my page, if you haven’t already. That’s the best place to find me on a daily basis. Thanks for reading! ~*~